“Natkhat Si Khushi"

(A Psychological Short Story)

“Jhilmil karta hua wo,
yaad aata hai.
Khil khilata hua wo,
dil me samata hai.
Hoga wo kisi or,
duniya ka taj.
Lekin hai uski khayalo ki duniya,
Basne lagi hai jo aaj.
Roj aata hai milne usse,
Mitane apni pyaar ki pyaas.
Jo lata hai wo use,
Kuch to baat hai usme khaas.
Chalo chalte hai,
un sapno ki duniya me.
Ehsaas karne uski,
masoom si hasi.
Sabke saath paa,
hai wo kuch alag.
Kyuki hai uske paas,
Natkhat si khushi.”

Bareilly jaise chhote sheher ki dharti pe door se ek chamakta hua sitara najar aa raha tha. Garm Hawao ka pehra tha jo kabhi na thera tha. Wo nazdeek aa raha or nazdeek or nazdeek…. Uski saansein tej thi jaise haaf raha ho...lekin chhote kadam rukne ka naam nahi le rahe the. Na jaane kon si dhun sawaar thi jo use kisi k kareeb khinche chali jaa rahi thi.
“Uffff….Ufffff….Uffff…”, uske muh se itna hi nikla tha jab wo kuch der thak k araam karne laga lekin use uthna tha, uthna tha or jana tha waha se gujar kar jaha uski sapno ki duniya ka saarthak roop dikhayi dene wala tha.
Lihaja wo mast magan ho kar fir se daudne laga jaise kisi lambi race ka ghoda ho. Or dharti ki mitti uske kadmo ko sajda karme lagi.
Badan pe school uniform ..hatho me kitabon se bhara bag, or sar pe junoon sa rubaab. Lekin ye sab bina uske beghairat tha jo chamak uski aankho me or masoomiyat chehre pe thi… wo tha matra 12 saal ka chamakta hua dhruv sitara. Jo apni manzil pe pahunch chuka tha.
Wo dabe paav andar aane lagta hai tabhi….
“Aa gaya awaragardi karke”, bawari ne uspe tanj kasa.
“Maa…! aap bhi na”, Usne muh theda kiya or jute wahi utaar k apne room me chala gaya.
“Ye jute kon utha k rakhega samne wale Verma ji ko bulaau kya”, unhone chilaate huye gussa jataya.
Lekin wo kaha sunne wala tha isliye wo unki baat ansuna kar k apne kamre me chala gaya.
“Ye ladka kisi ki nahi sunta, mai to tang aa gayi hoon”, Unhone apne matha peeta.
Ye the ek middle class family k chote se nawabzaade Nirav Rajvanshi pyaar ka naam Niru…. Waise to ghar walo ki baat dil or kaan dono khol kar aunte the lekin kabhi kabhi koi dhun sar pe sawaar ho jaati to kisi or duniya me ya kahe apni duniya me kho jaate hai. Fir na apne pita ki sunte hai na apni maa ki...eklaute jo thehre.
Na jyada dost na jyada jaan pehchan… bas agal hi duniya basa rakhi thi jisme khul kar jeeta tha Niru jaha tak kisi ka pahuch pana bahut mushkil tha.
Raat me….
Ghar k darwaze pe dastak hoti hai. Bawari darwaja kholti hai.
“Aa gaye aap..aaj der ho gayi?”, Usne kisi se bag lete huye puchha.
“Haan Diwan sahab ne rok liya tha...”, Niru k pita Gopal Rajvanshi ne kaha.
“Extra salary de to kuch baat bhi hai”, Bawari ne unhe paani dete huye kaha.
“Salary nahi ek din chhutti bhi bahut hai apne parivar k saath bitane k liye”, unhone muskura kar kaha.
Ye tha Rajvanshi parivar yu to parivar me teen hi sadasya the lekin yehi puri duniya thi. Or Gopal aur Bawari ne unki duniya tha unka Nirav. Jisko ek acchi zindagi dene k liye wo har tarha ki mehnat karne ko ready the. Tabhi to middle class family k hone k baad bhi Nirav k paas wo sab kuch tha jo dusare baccho k paas tha. Or usi me chhupi thi Niru ki khushi.
“Waise Niru kaha hai”, Gopal ne puchha.
“Jab se aaya hai na jaane kamra band kar k kya kar raha hai”, Bawari ne shikayat ki.
Gopal hus diye.
“Aap hus kyu rahe hai”, Bawari ne najre tareri
“Tum har waqt uske sar pe kyu sawar rehti ho...ghar me hi na kahi bahar to nahi gaya...or padh raha hoga nahi to khel raha hoga...wo bada ho raha hai use thoda sapce do” Gopal ne kaha.
Bawari ko bhi Gopal ki baat kahi na kahi sahi lag rahi thi.
Lekin unhe kya pata Niru kis duniya me khoya hai.
Next day….School me…
Class me teacher padha rahe the. Lekin Nirav ka dhyaan kahi gum tha. Wo apni kitab k panne palat raha tha.
“Oye Niru...kaha khoya hai uth warna ma'am daant lagayengi”, Uske dost Luvkush ne use hilaya.
Wo khadbada k uth gaya.
“Tera dhyaan kaha hai”, Luvkush ne puchha.
“Kahi Nahi”, usne jaise kuch chhipaya.
Tabhi school ki ghanti bhi baj gayi thi.
Or wo sabse pehle bhaagta hua...School se bahar nikal gaya. Jaise kahi jaane ki use jaldi ho. Wo daudta hua… Ek park me jaa pahucha jaha jyada tar sannta rehta tha usi sannate me wo apne sapno ki duniya ki goonj sunta tha.
Usne apne bag se art file nikali jiska cover usne khud apne haatho se sajaya tha or us pe likha tha Natkhat Si Khushi. Wahi art file hi uski duniya thi jaha wo apni soch apne sapno k rang bharta tha.
Jaise hi file ka pehla page kholta use chehre pe muskaan aa jati. Wo naam dekh k jis naam ko wo apni kalpanao me sach karta tha.
Wo naam tha Sanskaar Rastogi ka. Jab wo dusara page open karta hai to uska chhaya chitra bhi uske mann me hulchul macha deta hai.
Sanskaar Rastogi ek 22 saal ka Television ka jana mana chehra. Jiski acting or look k sabhi nojawaan kaayal the. Agar kuch baccho ka bhi wo chahita hoga to Niru un bacchon me se ek tha. Jiske mann me uthne wali tarango ka use andaza nahi tha k wo khu uth rahi hai or iska kya matlab hai. Wo bas un palo ko jiye jaa raha tha.
Usne Sanskaar ki zindagi se judi har ek taar ko us file me dhaal diya tha jo ab uske zindagi se jud chuki thi.
Wo khoya hua tha tabhi...park ka care taker aata hai.
“oye bacche…..! yaha kya kar raha hai akele?”, Care door se chillaya
Nirav darr jata hai or jaldi se file k panne band kar deta hai
“Oye School gaya tha to sidha ghar jana chahiye, yaha kya kar raha hai”, Wo paas aate huye bola.
“Nahi ...bas mai jaa hi raha tha uncle.”, Wo hadbadahat me fusfusaya.
“To jaa fir”, care taker ne gardan hilaayi.
Uska itna kehna tha k Nirav ne ek lambi daud laga di jo uske ghar k darwaaje pe hi aakar ruki.
“Aa gaya”, roj roj kaha der ho jaati hai tujhe?”, Bawari ne puccha
“Wo mai….wo mai.”, wo sochne laga k kya bahana banaye.
“Accha accha jaa jaldi se kapde badal k khana kha le”, Bawari ne hukum diya.
Niru bhi usse kuch aur na puchha jaaye isliye wo jaldi se room me bhaag jata hai.
Raat me…
“Daddy..!! Daddy..!! Jaldi se Ehsaas channal lagayiye na… Sanskaar ka serial aa raha hoga”, wo daudta hua aaya or dhammm se sofe pe baithta hua bola.
Gopal ne uski baato ko ansuna kiya jo news dekhne me magan the.
“Daddy lagayiye na….nahi to serial khaam ho jayega”, usne zidd ki.
“Niru..! Chup kar or news dekhne dein...jaa jaa k padhai kar”, W gussaye.
“O ohh kyu daant rahe bechahre ko ek hi to serial dekhta hai or aap use wo bhi nahi dekhne dete”, Bawari kitchen se bahar aate aate Niru ki tarafdari karne lagi.
“Ye tv wale na jaane kaise kaise serial banate hai bas pyaar mohabbat wale or aise serial dekhne hai isko...aree iski umaf k bacche cartoon dekhte hai or ise faaltu ka serial dekhna hai.” Gopal ne chilla k sabki bolti band kar di thi jaise unhone apne din bhar k kaam ka frustration Niru k pasandida serial pe nikala ho.
Bawari bhi chup ho jaati hai...or Niru muhh latkaaye apne room me chala jata hai.
Room me…
“Dad ne to aaj mujhe mere Sanskaar ko dekhne hi nahi diya, koi baat nahi kal din me jaldi aa ke repeat delh lunga...”, usne mann hi mann ye sab soch liya tha.
“lekin abhi kya karu?”, usne khud se kaha.
tabhi wo apni chahiti file khol k baith gaya or Sanskaar ko nihaarne laga. Or sochne laga jaise wo uske saath jivant mudra me hai.
Next day….
School ki class me…
“Aaaahhhh” ek awaaj aayi thi jisne sabko chonka diya tha.
Teacher k saath sabne palat k dekha to wo awaaj Niru k muhh se nikali thi.
“Kya hua Nirav...are you ok?”, Teacher duad k uake paas gayi.
Saare students ne bhi gher liya tha.
“No ma'am… mere pet me bahut tej dard ho rahi hai”, wo pet pakad k bola
Teacher ne turant principal ko khabar di...or principal k kehne pe school ka pune Niru ko uske ghar tak chhodne aaya.
“Aree Niru tu aaj itni jaldi kaise?”, Bawari ne chinta jatayi
“iske pet me dard ho raha tha isliye principal ma'am ne ise ghar chhodne k liye kaha hai”, peun ne unhe saari kahani batayi
“pet dard ..lekin subha tak to ye theek tha”, wo chonki.
Tabhi Niru fir se pet pakad k chillaya or Bawari ne use sofe pe baitaya..
Kuch der baad…
Niru ab relax feel kar raha tha Bawari ne use khada jo bana k diya tha...ab wo khushi khushi apna favourite serial bina kisi rok rok k dekh sakta tha..ya ye kahe sirf Sanskaar Rastogi ko dekh sakta tha.
“maine jaisa jaisa socha tha bilkul waisa hua...thankyou bhgwan ji”, usne mann me aaj kiye natak k safal hone ki khushi me god ko thanks bola.
Kuch din baad
Subha subha…
Aaj to Niru ki khushi ka thikana na tha...Aaj news paper me Sanskaar ki photo jo aayi thi...jisme wo bahut handsome lag raha tha kyu is baar wo shirtless tha use dekh Niru k nadar ek alag se ehsaas ne janam liya jo shayad pehli baar hua tha or kaafi umang bhara tha.
Niru jaldi se us photo ko kaatne me lag jata kyuki uski sapno ki file k liye Sanskaar ki ek or photo jo mil gayi thi jo uske hisaab se aaj tak ki photos me sabse behtareen thi jo usne collect kar k rakhi thi….Tabhi
“Ye kya kar hai”, Bawari boli
“Kuch nahi Sanskaar ki pic kaat raha hoon”, wo masoomiyat se bola
“Abhi nahi ..abhi daddy news paper padhenge...baad me kaat lena.”
Unke kehne pe uske muhh banate huye news paper rakh diya. Lekin baad me wo photo lene me kaamyaab ho gaya tha jaise kisi Mountaineer ko
.Der raat 2 baje…
Jaha Gopal or Bawari apne kamre me chain ki nind so rahe the wahi dusare kamre me koi tha jo abhi bhi jag raha tha kyuki use nind nahi aa rahi thi.
Wo tha Niru...jo apne aankh kholne k baad bhi apni khayaalo ki duniya me khoya hua tha usi file k saath or is baar ek nayi photo k saath.
“Hum ek din jarur milenge Sanskaar ji, or tab mai aapko gale se laga lunga….” wo ye sab khud se keh raha tha.
“Kaash aap jaisa Niharika (TV Actress) k saath karte hai uske liye gana gaate hai….waisa mere saath bhi karte. Mujhe aap bahut pasnad hai”, wo ye sab aankhe band kar k Sanskaar ko sochte huye keh raha tha.
kehte kehte kab uski aankh lag gayi use pata hi na chala.
Tabhi ek khatkhat ki awaaj hui jisse uski aankh khul gayi or wo uthh k baith gaya. Wo dekhta hai Sanskaar uske saamne khada hai. Usi tarha jis tarha uski photo aaj k news paper me nikali thi.
“Sanskaar ji aap…?”, wo chonka
“Haan Niru tumne mujhe yaad kiya or mai aa gaya..”, Sanskaar ne uske gaal pe haath rakhte huye kaha.
Wo khushi se uske gale lag jata hai...or Sanskaar Us bacche ko apne goud me utha leta hai.
“Mujhe Pyaar kariye Sanskaar ji”, Wo bhinbhinaya.
“Kya”?, Sanskaar chonka.
“Mujhe kas k gale laga lijiye...jaise aap Niharika ko lagate hai”, Wo is baar pure confidence k saath bola.
“Theek hai agar tum kehte ho to..”, itna keh k Sanskaar use bed pe le kar gir jata hai. Or Niru sharma jata hai jaise use sab kuch mil gaya ho.
Niru...khud k tadapti macchli ki tarha bed pe machalne lagta hai Sanskaar use gale se laga k masalne lagta hai wo bed pe idhar se udhar bikar rahe the...uski aankhe band thi tabhi uska dhyaan tutta hai or wo khud ko bed pe akela pata. Almost subha ho chuki thi. Us ka dhayaan bed sheet par jata hai jo thodi gili thi...use bilkul bhi nahi pata tha k wo kya tha kr aisa kyu hua. Bas wo itna hi jaanta tha jo wo ab feel kar raha tha waisa usne pehle kabhi feel nahi kiya tha.
Ab dheere dheere har raato ko wo Sanskaar ko khyaalo me laa kar kuch alag mehsoos karta tha. Bawari bhi is chiz ko andekha kar diya.
Aise hi din bitate gaye or ab 12 saal ka baccha Niru 15 saal nojawaan ho gaya tha. Lekin Sanskaar k liye uska ehsaas aaj bhi waisa ka waisa tha. Ya ye kahe or jyada badh gaya tha. Jise wo har din or har raat jeeta tha art file Natkhat ki khushi k saath.
Ek din….
Niru Television me dhyaan lagaye magan tha. Aaj bhi use bahar jaake khelna ya ghumna psand nahi tha. Isliye shayad uske koi jyada dost nahi the..wo channel change hi kar raha tha k ek News channel pe khabar aati hai k Sanskaar ne shaadi kar li hai… ye khabar uske dil ko teer k samaan cheer k jaati hai. Pehli baar to use yakeen nahi hua tha.
Wo tv band karta or apne room me chala jata … uska dil toot gaya tha kyuki uska Sanskaar ab uska nahi raha tha. Uski aaknho se sach me pehli baar uske liye aansu nikalne the...or har aansu k saath Sanskaar ki saari yaadein dhul gayi…usne apni art file faad k daali.
Jaha Khushi likha hua Natakhat se alag ho gaya.
Ab wo usse nafrat karne laga tha. Usne mann me maan liya tha k usne use dhokha diya hai.
Samay m bahaav ne Niru ko Sanskaar ki yaadon se juda kar diya tha. Ab uski yaadien ek parchhai ban gayi thi.
Dheere dheere samay bitata gaya...or age k saath saath usme harmonious changes hone lage.. ab Niru 15 se 17 saal ka ho gaya tha.
ab wo apne khyaalo me alag alag kirdaao ko bunne laga. Jinke saath wo raaton ko khushi ka ehsaas karta tha.jisme bas khushi thi natkhat pan nahi
Ye log kuch TV ke handsome kirdaar the or kuch uske aas paas k log.
Ek din…
Bawari ghar k kapde dhul rahi thi jisme Niru k bhi kapde the..
“Ye kya hai”,usne khud se puchha
jaise hi usne uske kapde uthaye...ek kapde me kuch ajeeb sa pradhart laga hua tha pehle to wo samjh nahi paayi lekin baad me use yakeen ho gaya k ab unka Beta baccha nahi raha balki bada ho gaya hai.
“Nirav ye sab kya hai”, wo jaldi se aayin or usse sawaal karne lagi.
Ek pal to use kuch sujha hi nahi k kya kahe wo apne aap me sharminda za ho gaya tha
“Mai kuch puchh rahi hoon Nirav”,wo chillayi
“Maa ...aap bhi ...mujhe kya pata hoga kuch laga” ..wo kehte kehte bahar chala gaya tha
Usne socha usne khud ko sawaalo se bacha liya hai. Lekin ab use puraa sangyaan tha k wo kya karta aaya hai itne saalo se...or ye bhi k wo baaki ladko se alag kyu hai.
Wo aksar khud se ye sawaal puchhta tha k use ladke hi kyu pasand hai lekin iska jwaab use aaj tak nahi mila.
Ab wo thoda savdhan bhi ho gaya tha…lekin nadaani karna bhoola nahi tha.

Ek din…

Niru ab badi class me aa gaya tha or use padhai k liye laptop ki jarurat mehsoos huyi. Jiski maang usne Gopal se ki.
“Daddy mujhe laptop chahiye ...mere saare dosto k paas hai or ma'am bhi bolti hai”, usne request ki…
“ Theek hai”,Gopal ne padhai ka naam sun kar ek baar me haan kar di.
Or kuch dino baad laptop uske haath me tha.
Lekin ab use aisa saadhan mil chuka tha jise wo study k liye kam or apni khushi paane me jyada karta tha yehi uski nadaani thi jiska andaza Na Gopal laga paaye na Bawari. Wo bahut khush tha lekin ab uske khushi k maayne badal chuke the..
aisa laga use Jannat mil gayi ho...lekin Iska parinam saamne aana hi tha jo ek din aa hi gaya.
Kuch din baad….
Rohit jo Niru ka class mate tha usse apne notes lene aaya
Lihaja ghar pe koi nahi tha.
Or ye Niru k liye goalden moment se kam nahi tha kyuki use Rohit par kahi na kahi crush tha. Jisse wo chaa k bhi nahi bata sakta tha.
“Thanks yaar ….ab mai chalta hoon”, Rohit notes le k jaane laga..
Tabhi usne usko rokne ki koshish ki. Rokta bhi kyua na uske dhadakte dil ko thaamne ka jo sawal tha.
“Ruk na yaar thodi der “, waise bhi ghar me koi nahi hai.
Or Rohit unke insist karne pe ruk jata hai.
Uska irada Rohit samjh nahi paya .. use kaha pata tha Niru raaton ko jin jinke baare me soch k khushi ka ehsaas karta tha Umang unme se ek tha.
Wo dono baith k baatein karne lage jabki Niru Rohit ko hi ghoore jaa raha tha. Rohit ko bhi kuch ajeeb laga.
“Kya hua yaar”, uska itna kehna tha k
Niru ab apne armaano ko rok nahi paya or Rohit k hontho ko choom baitha… Rohit ek second k liye bahouchkka ho gaya k uske saath kya hua. Lekin agle hi pal wo pichhe hat k use gaaliya dene laga.
“Saale ye kya kiya tune….pagla gaya hai kya”, wo uspar bhabka
“Sorry yaar….galti se ho gaya...sorry dekh kisi please mat batana”, wo darre hue lehje me bolne laga.
“Aaj se tu mujhse baat mat karna or mere aas paas bhi bhatka na to dekh lena…...” , wo use dhamki dete huye bahar nikal gaya.
Or Nirav apna sar pakad k baith gaya or apne kiye pe rone lagta hai. Wo aansu pachhateve k the..
Wo sochne laga k wo aisa kaise ho gaya….usse bachapan se lekar aaj tak saari baatein yaad aane lagi...wo samajh nahi paa raha tha wo kya kare kaise is janjaal se nikale jisme wo apni marji se gaya hi nhi tha.
Ab wo bachpan wali baat nahi rahi thi. Kyuki usme masoomiyat thi ek bachkana pan tha ek nasamajh lekin pavitr pyaar tha……
Aaj us masoomiyat ka khoon ho chuka tha. Jise uske darr or sharm ne kiya tha. Uski nasamajh ichhao ne kiya th. Ya ye kahe samaj or prakrti ke niyamo ne kiya tha.
Jab se Sanskaar ko dekh k uske mann me ehsaas aaya tab use pyaar shabd ka matlab tak nahi pata tha or aaj uske liye pyaar bas ek Khushi ko prapt karna tha jisme natkhatpan bilkul nahi tha.
Ye thi kahani Niru k Sanskaar se lekar Rohit tak k safar ki….
Ye thi kahani ek masoom bacche Niru se Nirav banne ki.
Ye thi Natakhat Si Khushi k dukh me badalne ki kahani.

“Jhilmil karta hua wo,
yaad aata tha.
Khil khilata hua wo,
dil me samaya tha.
Tha wo kisi or,
duniya ka taj.
Lekin thi uski khayalo ki duniya,
Bas na paayii jo aaj.
Sabke saath paa,
Ab na raha wo alag.
Kyuki na rahi uske paas,
Wo Natkhat si khushi.”

………..THE END…………

Writer - Nits