"एक रात की नौ बात"
___A Psychological Short Story___
"न भय खुद से दूर जाने का,
कि स्वयं को गींठा लगाया हूँ मैं;
न डर किसी के प्रवेश का मुझमें,
अंतर्मुखी सुकून में गूँथा गया हूँ मैं।"
Hello everyone mai hoon aapka Nits jo ek baar fir se apni lekhni k pitare se lekar aaya hoon ek aise ladke ki kahani jiski zindagi kisi k saath anjane me aisi judi k uski zindagi ke mayene hi badal gaye.
Ye kahani hai bas ek raat ki or mai khada hoon Devpur naam ke ek chhote se gaav ke ek railway station pe or dekh raha hoon tej raftaar se ek ke baad ek bina ruke gujarti huyi rail gaadiyon ko.
Devpur railway station sunsaan or virano me bana ek aisa chota sa railway station hai jaha se gaav milo door hai. Isi wajah se us station pe station master, ek do kuli, Or ek announcement karne wale k alawa gine chune hi yaatri the.
Ab raat ka samay ho chala tha. Train ka aana jana laga hua tha. Lekin samay gujarte hi yatriyo ki sankhya kam hoti jaa rahi thi kyuki raat ka peher hi kuch aisa tha. Door door tak bas sannata pasra hua tha.
Tabhi station pe koi apna kadam rahta hai. Wo 24 saal ka ladka tha. Dikhne me accha or sadharan sa. Kandhe pe bag taange aakar station platform pe padi ek bench pe baith jata hai. Thandi thandi hawaayein uske baithte hi use sukoon deti hai.
"Uff... Sahi waqt pe pahuch gaya beta Sugam ab bas jaldi se train aa jaaye.", usne apne aap se kaha.
Or wo khali bench pe baitha apni train ka intejaar karne laga.
Ek ke baad ek train aati jaati rahi lekin uski train abhi tak nahi aayi thi. Dheere dheere passenger bhi jaane lage the or station ka platform khali sa dikhne laga tha...
Wo baar- baar apni kalaayi ki ghadi or us ore dekh raha tha jis ore se uski train aani thi.
Baithe baithe aadhe ghante hone ko aaye the. Ab wo us station pe eklota yaatri tha.
"Ye train abhi tak aayi kyu nahi... Kahi mai late to nahi ho gaya ya train hi na late ho gayi ho" Uske maathe pe shikan thi.
Uski bechaini station master bahut der se dekh rahe the....wo uske paas aakar puchhte hai.
"Kahan jana hai tumhe beta", Station master ne uske kandhe pe haath rakh k puchha.
"Master sahab mujhe sheher jana hai lekin ye train abhi tak nahi aayi." Usne chinta jatate huye kaha
"Tumhari train to ab tak aa jani chahiye thi shayad late ho gayi ho gayi hogi... Tum ek kaam karo yehi baitho mai pata karta hoon." Itna keh k station master announcement karne wale karmchaari k paas chale jaate hai.
Or Sugam khali station ki khali bench pe baith ke fir se apni train ka intejaar karne lagta hai. Kuch der baad use door kisi ki parchhayi dikhti hai jaise koi railway track pe chal raha ho. Wo use awaaj deta hai.
"Oye suno... Ruko... Oye", wo use awaaj deta hai lekin wo nahi rukta.
"Oye behre train aa jayegi marna hai kya", Wo awaaj lagte huye uske pichhe jata hai.
Akhirkar wo use pakad leta hai.
"Pagal hai kya... Abhi train aa jati to marr jata", wo use apne samne pata hai or us par chillata hai.
Wo dekhta hai wo ek 22 saal ka ladka tha jise usne roka tha.. Chehre pe tej or alag chamak thi aisa maano jaise abhi naye bacche ka janam hua ho.
Ek pal ko wo use dekhta hi reh jata hai lekin agle pal wo uske samne sawalo ki jhadi laga deta hai.
"Tu itni raat ko andhere me is railway track pe kya kar raha hai", Sugam uspe bhadka.
"Mai to yaha aksar sair karne aata hoon. Yaha ke sannate ka sukoon, yaha ki thandi hawa, or andhere ki shitalata mujhe bahut accha mehsoos karati hai", sune muskura kar jawab diya.
"Lekin is tarha patriyon ke beech me chalna kitna khatarnaak ho sakta hai pata hai tumhe.." Sugam ne chinta jatayi
"Mujhe kuch nahi hoga... Tum fikar na karo", us ladke ne fir se hus k jawab diya or aage badh gaya.
Tabhi dusri taraf se station master ne Sugam ko door se awaaj lagayi or wo us ladke ko rokne ki jagah apne bag k paas aagaya jaha Station master bhi khade the.
"Kaha chale gaye the tum beta is tarha bag akela chhod ke?", Station master ne puchha.
"Wo mai us ladke ko rokne gaya tha pagal beech track pe chal raha tha wo bhi itne andhere me", usne kaha
"Kon ladka..?", station master ne us taraf najar firaate huye puchha
"Aree wo ladka", Sugam ye kehte huye jaise hi palta usne dekha waha door door tak koi nahi tha. Jaise us ladke ko andhera nigal gaya ho
"Yaha mushkil se hi koi yaatri itni raat ko rukta hai... Or kisi k aane ka sawal hi nahi paida hota tumhe bharam hua hoga ... Khair tumhari Train ka maine pata kiya hai wo 9 ghante late hai."
Unhone kaha.
"Kya 9 ghante...Tab tak mai kya karunga yaha... Wapas itni door gaav bhi nahi jaa sakta itni raat ko", Sugam chonka
"Haan beta.. Wapas jaane or fir aane me hi 9 ghante beet jayenge... Isse accha hai tum rest room me baith k wait kar sakte ho ya yahi plateform pe bench pe baith k intejaar kar sakte ho", station master ne sujhaav diya.
"Mai yehi theek hoon", Sugam ne kaha.
Station master bhi apne office room me chale jaate hai.
Kareeb kuch samay tak idhar - udhar ghumne utne baithe chehal kadmi karne k baad Sugam ki aankh lagne lagti hai wo palke jhapakne lagta hai. Uski aankhe band so hone lagi thi or wo wahi bench pe let kar apne bag ko takiya bana sone jata hai.. Tabhi kuch samay baad uski aankh khulti hai or kisi ko apne pair k paas baitha pata hai, wo uth k dekhta hai.
Wo wahi lakda tha jise Sugam ne railway track par dekha tha.
"Tum.... Tum kab aaye or kahan chale gaye the", Sugam ne chaukte huye puchha.
"Maine kaha na mai to yaha aata jata rehta hoon...Tum log hi kabhi kabhi aate ho is station pe tabhi to mujhe nahi pehchante", usme manmouji pan se jawab diya
Sugam ko uski baatein sar ke upar se jaane wali lag rahi thi.
"Kya hua...Nahi samajhe...mai Devpur k paas wale gaav me rehta hoon or aksar yaha sair sapate k liye aa jata rehta hoon mujhe rail gaddiyaan dekhna bahut accha lagta hai..waise mera naam Nilaye hai", uski baaton me bahut masoomiyat thi
"Lekin itni raat ko is waqt railgadi dekhne kon aata hai wo to baccho ko pasnd aati hai na", uske kaha
"Mai baccha hi to hoon... Hahahhaha", Nilaye husa.
"Kahir tumhe jo karna hai karo mujhe nind aa rahi mujhe sone do", or wo fir se so jata hai.
Sote waqt sapne me wo kuch ajeeb sa dekhta hai.. Wo dekhta hai uski shaadi ho rahi hai ek lakdi ke saath Or kuch log jabardasti use mandap me kheech kar le jaa rahe hai wo chillata hai k mujhe chhod do mujhe jaane do lekin pandit ji ke mantr uchchaaran ki awaaj se uski awaaj dab si jaati hai. Wo paas rakhi agni kund me kood jata hai. Tabhi wo chaunk k uthta hai. Uska chehra pura paseena paseena ho gaya tha.. Saanse tej thi or aankho me khauf.
"Kya hua... Abhi to tum sone k liye lete the itni jaldi utha gaye? ", Paas baithe Nilaye ne puchha
"Wo... Wo... Wo maine bahut ajeeb sa sapna dekha", Sugam abhi bhi puri tarha se nind se nahi jaga tha.
"Spane hote hi hai hosh udane k liye... So jaao to aate hai jaagte huye satate hai", Nilaye ne ajeeb dhang se kaha.
"Tumhe kya pata mere mann me kya kya chal raha", Sugam ne apne bag me se bottle nikal paani ka ghoont pite huye kaha.
"Sahi kahan mujhe kya pata k tumhare mann me kya chal raha hai lekin mujhe itna jarur pata hai ke tum bahut badi mushkil me fasne wale ho", Nilaye ne kaha.
"Matlab", usne hairani se uski taraf dekha.
"Tumhara ajeeb sapne aana is tarha chaunk ke uth jana saaf saaf bayan kar raha hai k tumhe bahut badi pareshaani hai jo tumare liye mushkil banti jaa rahi hai or yehi mushkil tumhe mushkil me daal sakti hai", Nilaye ne andaza lagaya
"Haan sahi kahan tumne mai kahi na kahi bahut pareshan hoon. Lekin meri pareshaani sunne or samjhne wala koi nahi hai", Sugam ne apne chehre ko apne haath se dhakte huye kaha.
"Mai hoon na mai sununga", Nilaye ne uske kandhe pe haath rakhte huye kaha.
"Tum... Mai tumhe apni pareshaani kyu batau.. Mai to tumhe janta tak nahi", usne aithan dikhayi
"Hahaha...Anjaan hoon tabhi to khul k bata sakte ho kyuki agar tum apno ko bata paate to aaj is halat me na hote", Nilaye ne use tasalli di.
Sugam ko bhi lagne laga k wo apne dil ki baat use kahega to uska mann bhi halka hoga saath hi use kuch sujhaav bhi mil jayega k use kya karna chahiye ya kya nahi.
"Theek hai suno..", Sugam kehna shuru karta hai.
"Mai nahi janta tum meri baaton ko samjhoge ya nahi...Lekin mai apni taraf se puri koshish karunga k mai saral bhasha me keh saku...mujhe ye jeevan niradhar lagta hai. Mera mann karta hai k mai ek aisi jagah chala jaau jaha koi na ho bas mai hoon. Mujhe kisi se judne ka mann nahi karta." Sugam kehte kehte khinn sa bartaav karne lagta hai.
"Araam se.. Jo kehna hai bejhijhak kaho", Nilaye ne sahara diya.
"Mai... Mai.... Mai kehna chahta hoon ki... I mean mere kehne ka matlab ye hai ki...ki.... Mai jo hoon wo mai nahi hoon. Mera matlab... Kaise kahu.... Dekho mai ek Gay hoon or mujhe ladke pasand hai. Mai nahi janta tumhe gay ka matlab pata hai ke nahi lekin mere ghar wale meri shaadi karwa rahe hai or mai kisi ladki se shaadi nahi karna chahta mai khush nahi hoon." Bahut jaddojahad ke baad Sugam ne akhirkar ek anjaan ke samne apna raaz khol diya tha.
Nilaye use ghoor k dekhne lagta hai usme chehre pe mand mand muskan thi
"Tum LGBT community se ho", Nilaye ne utsukta se pucha.
"Tumhe pata hai LGBT k baare me mujhe laga tum gaanv k hoge jise in sabki koi jankari nahi hai", Sugam thoda relax hua.
"Mai kya hoon aajtak mai khud hi nahi samajh paya... Khair yaha baat tumhari ho rahi hai...Tum gay ho isme koi badi baat nahi... Tum shaadi se mana kar do.", Nilaye ne sujhaav diya
"Nahi kar sakta.. Mai apne maa baap ka ek lota beta hoon unhe mujhse bahut ummeed hai.. Mai Devpur gaanv apne kul devta ke darshan karne hi aaya tha jisse sheher jaate hi meri Shadi ki rasme shuru ho jaaye.", Sugam bolte bolte khud me bahut hataash sa mehsoos kar raha tha.
"To tum apne maa baap ki khushi k liye kisi Masoom ladki ki khushiyo ko daav pe lagaoge... Kya tum use waisa pyaar de paaoge jaisa har patni apne pati se chahti hai?", Nilaye ne uspe sawal uthaye.
"Mujhe nahi pata. Mujhe kuch nahi pata.. Mai kya kar raha hoon, kyu kar raha hoon bas mai itna chahta hoon k mai in sab se bahar nikalna chahta hoon nahi to mann karta mai mar jaaun", Sugam bilkul hataash ho chuka tha.
"Hahaha..Marna itna asaan nahi jitna asaan jeevan jina hota hai...or ye sabke bas ki baat bhi nahi isliye marne ka khayaal apne mann se nikal do or jo bhi tumhari zindagi me chal raha hai uska datt kar saamna karo...Iske alawa mai kuch hadd tak tumhari madad kar sakta hoon", Nilaye k kehne par Sugam ne uski taraf ummeed ki najro se dekha.
"Kaise?", usne puchha
"9 baatein hai jise tumhe samjhna hoga or agar tumne in 9 baaton ko samjh liya tumhara aadha rasta apne aap asaan ho jayega", Nilaye ne apne dono haath ki 9 ungaliyaan use dikhayi.
"Kon si hai 9 baatein", Sugam utsuk hua.
Itni bhi jaldi kya hai abhi to puri raat padi hai. Chalo thoda chehal kdami ho jaaye waise bhi mausam bahut thanda hai", usne partiyon ki taraf ishara karte huye kaha.
Dono rail ki patriyon k beech paidal chal rahe the charo taraf sannata tha or ghanghor andhera.
"Tumhe darr nahi lagta itni raat ko aise sunsaan jagah pe akele ghoomne se? ", Sugam ne usse puchha
"Lagta hai lekin mai khud ko khush karne k liye aisa karta hoon ki darr apne aap bhaag jata hai", Nilaye ne kaha.
"Kya karte ho...?" Sugam ne puchha.
Tabhi wo beech patriyon pe nachne lagta hai.
""मिट्टी की खुशबू ओढ़े प्रीत,
छनक के जगी प्रेम रीत,"
Sugam huste huye " Ye kya kar rahe ho",
"Jo mujhe khushi deta hai wo kar raha hoon..." Nilaye ka jism hawaon ki tarha lehara raha tha.
"Matlab?", Sugam ne puchha.
"Mujhe dance karna bahut pasand hai..or jab mai dance karta hoon to sab kuch mujhe bahut khushi deta hai", Nilaye natkhat pan se bola.
"To tumhe bhi aisa karna chahiye jo tumhe sabse jyada khushi deta hai jisko karne k liye tum kuch bhi, kisi ko bhi bhool sakte ho or jab tum wo karoge to dimag me se darr dukh sab udan chhuu ho jayenge", Nilaye ne chutki bajate huye kaha.
"Ohh to ye thi tumhari pehli baat. Or dusri baat kya hai ", Sugam ne thoda relax feel kiya
"Haan..Abhi to bas shuruaat hai, abhi to baat 8 hai", Nilaye ne Shayri sir kahi.
"Tum na bahut ajeeb ho kabhi achanak andhere me gum ho jaate ho, kabhi achanak dance karne lagte ho to kabhi achanak se shayri bolne lagte ho", Sugam ne aashcharya jataya.
"Meri baat hi nirali hain.. Waise baaton baaton me dusri baat bhi nikalwa li tumne sugam babu", Nilaye ne daanto take jubaan dabayi.
"Matlab", Sugam ne sandeh vyakt kiya
Nilaye ne apni shirt ki jeb se ek kagaj ka tukda nikala or Sugam ko padhne ko diya jispe likha tha.
"परवाह नही किसी की,
कि खुद में खंडित हूँ मैं;
न ख्याल विष अमृत का,
के स्वयं में मंथित हूँ मैं।"
"Waah...kitni gheri baat hai. Ye tumne likha hai? ", Sugam ke sawal reh reh ke ubhar rahe the
"Nahi wo master ne likha hai... Bilkul maine likha hai..Jab hum apni baat kisi se nahi keh paate na to hume use likh lena chahiye isse humara mann bhi halka ho jata hai or hume ek dost bhi mil jata hai.. Isiliye to kitabon ko insaan ka sabse accha dost kaha gaya hai.", Nilaye ne us kagaj k tukde ko Sugam se lekar wapas apni jeb me rakhte huye kaha.
Dono baatein karte karte wapas plateform pe us bench pe aa jaate hai jaha Sugam ka bag rakha tha.
"Ab tum jaldi se 6 batein bhi bol do mujhse raha nahi jaa raha.", Sugam ne garam joshi se kaha
"Tum kabhi ghar ya apne sheher k bahar gaye ho?", Nilaye ne pucha
"Mai India k bahar gaya hoon tum sheher ki baat kar rahe...New York, London, Sydney, Paris, China na jaane kitne desh ghumne hai maine", usne apni thodi rubaabi jhaadi
"Waah.. Mai to aaj tak apne gaanv k bahar tak nahi gaya lekin apne gaanv me bahut or aas paas ki jagah bahut ghuma hoon mai", Nilaye ne sankoch me kaha.
"Tabhi tum in railway line pe bhi bhatak rahe the.. Hahahha ", Sugam ne husi thitholi ki jisse Nilaye sankoch na kare
"Chalo tumhare chehre pe husi to aayi..To mai ye keh raha tha ghumakkad prakrti insaan ko khud se jodti hai..Jab tum alag alag jagah pe alag alag logo ko janoge unse miloge unke dukh sukh ki kahani sunoge unki dilasa doge to tumne pata chalega tumhare dukh kitne chote hai or sukh kitne bade". Nilaye baton baaton me apni teesri baat bhi keh di thi.
"Wait a minute. Jaise tum mujhe mile or jaise tum meri problem k baare me sun rahe ho", Sugam ko thoda bahut idea ho gaya tha teesari baat ka
"Haan or yehi hai is raat ki teesri baat", Nilaye ne uske doubt ko apni haami bhar ke clear kiya.
"Ab bachi hai 6 baatein...Waise tum suspense bahut create karte ho...Jaldi batao na.", Sugam ko ab Nilaye ka saath accha lagne laga tha.
"To meri chauthi baat ye hai k tum sochte bahut ho...Mera matlab abhi 3 baatein khatam huye der nahi huyi or tum baaki ki 6 baaton k baare me sochne lage." Nilaye ne uspe halka sa gussa kiya.
"To tum sata bhi kitna rahe ho mujhse sabar nahi hota", Sugam ne zidd ki.
"Theek hai to panchvi baat ye hai", wo bolta isse pehle Sugam ne use toka.
"Tum panchvi baat pe kaise aa gaye pehle chauthi baat to puri karo.", Sugam ne use correct kiya
"Tumne shayad dhyaan nahi diya lekin chauthi baat mai bol chuka hoon", Nilaye k ye kehne par wo soch me padh jata hai.
"Nahi samjhe...Yaad karo maine kya kaha tha... ", Sugam yaad karta hai lekin wo kuch theek se samjh nahi pata
"Insaan kabhi kabhi soch bhi nahi pata or kabhi kabhi itna soch leta hai k use kuch sujhta hi nahi ya kuch yaad hi nahi rehta.. Maine kaha tha tum sochte bahut ho matlab Overthinking . "Nilaye ki baat Sugam ko kuch kuch samajh aane lagi thi
"Tum gay ho ye baat tumne apne mann me itna baitha liya hai k tum or kuch soch hi nahi paate or apne bhavishya ko lekar itna Overthinking karte jabki aaj jo ho raha hai tumne use jiya hi nahi.. jaise maine jo kaha tumne bas use suna lekin samjha nahi...or aage ki 6 baaton ko lekar Overthinking karne lage jo abhi maine batayi hi nahi, Samjhe kuch." Nilaye ne use aankh maari.
Sugam ne haan me sar hilaya.
"To aage ki panchavi baat kahu? " Uske puchne par Sugam ne fir se haan me sar hilaya
"Aage ki baat he hai tumne apne andar dukho ka itna gubbara bhar rakha hai k wo tumhe andar hi andar khaye jaa raha hai. Shyaad jo baat tumhe apne maa baap se kehni chahiye thi wo baat tum ek anjaan vyakti se aadhi raat me ek sunsaan station pe keh rahe ho. Jab tak tum apnope bharosa nahi karoge apno ko apna bharosa nahi dilaoge aise hi bahar kisi na kisi ko dhundate rahoge apne dil ki baat kehne k liye or jab koi sunne wala nahi milega wahi tumhare dukh ka kaaran banega", Nilaye apni panchvi baat bhi puri kar di thi.
"To kya mere gay hone ki baat mujhe apne maa baap ko bata deni chahiye.. Unhe dukhi kar apne dukh mita doon", Sugam be prashnchinh khada kiya.
"Aaj nahi to kal unhe or tumhari hone wali patni ko ye baat samajh me aa hi jayegi tab unhe shayad jyada dukh hoga.." Wo use samjhate huye keh raha tha.
"Dekho Sugam tum kya ho kya nahi tumhare ye jaanne se pehle tumhare baap maa jaan chuke honge. Wo apne bete ko tumse accha jante hai. Tumne 5 saal me hosh sambhala hai unka palra 5 saal jyada bhari hai. To unhe bas tumhare mohar ka intezar hai k tum khud ko kaise bahar laate ho", Nilaye ki ye baat Sugam k rongate khade kar dene wali thi.
Nilaye aage kuch kehta tabhi ek or Train aakar station pe ruk gayi Usme se ek yaatri utra or train chali gayi...Us yaatri ne idhar udhar dekha pure station pe use koi na dikha tabhi wo bench pe baithe Sugam ke paas aaya.
"Bhaiya ye Devpur gaanv yaha se kitna door hoga", yaatri ne puchha
"Kuch meel ka rasta hai...Lekin is samay aapko shaayad hi koi sadhan mile aapko subha tak ka wait karna hoga...baaki yahan ke station master ne bataya tha yaha ek rest room hai aap chahe to waha rest kar sakte hai", Sugam ne puri detail de dali thi jo bhi use pata tha
Wo yaatri use dhanyavaad karke jaane lagta hai or Sugam Nilaye se aage ki baatein batane ko kehta hai. Sugam ki awaaj sun kar yaatri pichhe mud kar dekhta hai or thoda hairaan sa ho jata hai...Lekin wo kuch na bolte huye apne raaste chal diya.
Idhar Sugam Nilaye se aage kehne k liye request karta hai.
"To Sugam ji... Mai apni chhati baat kehne jaa raha hoon...Kehna nahi actually mai tumse puchhna chahta hoon k tumhe kabhi kisi ladke pe pyaar aaya ya akarshan hua hai?, Nilaye ne puchha
"Ye kaisa sawal hua...Of course I'm gay to mujhe ladko pe hi crush aayega na. balki mere college time me ek bahut accha ladka tha behad handsome uski body uski physics kisi ko bhi mantramugdh kar dein .. Wo Mera junior tha. Lekin maine usse kabhi baat karne ki himmat nahi ki kyuki mai khud ko us layak nahi manta tha." Sugam ne maano Nilaye k agle prashan k jawab ek saath de diya ho.
"Tumne kaise pata wo ladka bahut accha hai jabki tumne kabhi usse baat nahi ki", Sugam uski baat sun khud ko thaga hua mehsoos karne laga
"Kisi ko jaane bina samjhe bina sirf isliye uske pichhe bhagna kyuki wo dikhne me accha hai or khud ko uske kaabil na samjhna tumhare hi dukhon me ek dukh ka kaaran hai. Shayad isliye tum kisi se khul kar apne dil ki baat nahi keh sake na us ladke se apni pasandagi jaahir kar paaye na apne maa baap ko apne dil ki baat keh paaye. Aaj kal sab upri aavaran ya kahe khoobsurat chehre ko dekh kar ek duje se pyaar karte hai dil koi kisi ka nahi dekhta...Kisi ko pyaar karna alag baat hai or kisi ki taraf aakarshit hona alag or aakarshan humesha dukh ka kaaran banta hai kyuki usse apekshayen paida hoti hai or wo puri na ho to insaan khinn mehsoos karne lagta hai..Jaise aap k andar khinnta bhari huyi hai" Nilaye ne saralta se apni baat keh di thi
Sugam ko Nilaye ki har ek baat acche se samjh aane lagi thi or wo uski chhati baat sunne k baad bhi uski taraf aakarshit hone laga tha. Ye baat Nilaye ne bhi notice ki thi ya nahi pata nahi lekin ye raat jaisi bhi thi Sugam k liye yaadgaar hoti jaa rahi thi.
Sugam k andar band sabhi kapaat dheere dheere khulne lage the ab baari thi ek or kapaat k khulne ki yaani Nilaye k saatvi baat ki.
"Nilaye ab jo mai kehne jaa raha hoon meri ek nahi balki do baaton ka samagam hai." Sugam ne or jyada dilchaspi dikayi.
"To har insaan k jeevan me ya mann me kuch raaz aise hote hai jise kala sach ya dark secret kaha tha jata. Aapke jeevan me bhi hoga...Mujhe na bataiye apni aankhe band kijiye sochiye kya hai aapke jeevan ka wo kala sach.", Nilaye Sugam ko aankhe band karne ko kehta hai.
Jaisi hi Sugam aankhe band kar sochne lagta hai uske aankhon k samne ek 9 saal ke bacche ka chehra ghumne lagta hai or wo jaldi se aankhe khol deta hai.
Nilaye samajh jata hai Sugam ne apna kala sach apni akhon se dekh liya hai.
Wo usse kuch nahi puchhta or apni baat khatam kar deta hai.
Lekin Sugam Nilaye ko kuch batana chahata tha... Wo kehna shuru karta hai.
"Jab mai 9 saal ka tha tab mere ek relative the jo aksar ghar aakar rukte wo door k mere uncle lagte the. Mai bhi unke aane pe bahut khush hota tha kyuki wo jab bhi wo aate mere liye chocolate or gift laate the.. Fir ek din wo aadhi raat ko mere kamre me aaye ye dekhne k liye k mai padh raha hoon ya so gaya hoon... Us raat mai padh raha tha... Wo aaye unhone mere sar pe haath fera or kaha "padh rahe ho beta" Maine kahan haan Uncle fir unhone kaha chocolate khaoge beta. Maine khush hokar haan me sar hilaya... Fir unhone mujhe apni gaud pe baitha liya or chocolate dene k bahane mujhe ajeeb tarha ka dard dene lage us raat to mai samjh nahi paya k wo kya tha lekin aaj mai acche se samjhta hoon k wo mere saath pyaar jatane k bahane mera fayeda uthaya karte the.. or ye ek baar nahi kayi baar hua mere saath. Mujhe bahut gussa aata hai unke upar aaj agar us raat wo aisa na karte to aaj mai jo hoon wo shayad kabhi na hota."
bolte bolte Sugam ki aankho me aansu aa gaye the uski awaaz bhaari or gala bhar aaya tha..
"Aisa na socho tum jo ho wo praakrtik hai banavati nahi", Nilaye ne uske haath pe apna haath rakha or use dilasha dene laga tabhi Sugam ne uska haath apne haath par se hata diya.
"Nahi Nilaye mat do mujhe dilasa mai is dilase k layak nahi hoon kyuki jo bachpan me mere uncle ne mere saath kiya tha... Wahi maine apne hawas mitane k liye ek bacche k saath kiya hai..Ye jante huye bhi k mai galat hoon or mere saath jaisa hua hai wahi mai kisi ke saath kaise kar sakta hoon.
Jab tumne mujhe aankh band karne ko kahan tha to meri najaro k samane usi bacche ka chehra parilakshit hua tha. Mai sach me bahut ganda insaan hoon", Sugam bolte - bolte apna aapa kho baitha or apne upar bahut naraj hone laga.
"Sugam sambhalo khud ko nasamajh jaise vyavhaar na karo or batao mujhe kya kiya tha tumne", Nilaye ne puri baat janni chahi.
"Jab mai 18 saal ka hua tab mujhe mere andar bahut kuch changes mehsoos huye mai samjh nahi paya wo kya the.. Tabhi unhi dino mai apne dosto k saath ek vivaah samaroh me shirkat karne pahucha waha raat ko hum dosto ne bahut sharab pi itni k mai hosh kho baitha or jaa kar so gaya aadhi raat ko jab meri aankh khuli maine dekha mere bagal me ek baccha soya hua tha... Uske chehre ki chamak dekh mai apne aape se bahar ho gaya or wo gunah kar baitha jo bachpan mere uncle ne mere saath kiya tha.", Sugam ne saari sacchai Nilaye k saamne khol kar rakh di thi.
Nilaye ek pal k liye chup ho jata hai or agle pal kehna shuru karta hai
"Meri do Saatvi or Aathvi baaton ka sambandh tumhari inhi do kahaniyon se hai.. Jis umar me jo tumhare saath hua wahi tumne usi umar k bacche k saath kiya.. Jo kisi bhi hadd tak sahi nahi hai lekin jaise har action ka reaction hota hai waisa hi tumhare saath hua. Jab umar me tumhare uncle ne tumhare saath galat kiya wo tumhari nasamajh ki umar thi or jis umar me tumne is bacche k saath galat kiya wo banne or bigadne ki umar thi... Tum khud ko sambhal nahi paaye or bahaav me beh gaye... Kishoravastha ko yuhi nahi sabse najuk awastha kaha gaya hai. Isme jitna jaruri dusro se sambhal k rehna hai utna hi khud ko sambhaal k rakhna bhi hai or dono hi tumse na ho paya jo aaj bhi kahi na kahi tunhare dukhon ka ek karan hai... To jo hua use tum badal nahi sakte lekin isse accha jarur kar sakte ho wo tab jab tum jeene ki iccha rakho or marne ka khyaal mann se nikal do." Nilaye apni baat khatm karta hai.
Pura mahaul thoda gamgeen or gambhir sa ho gaya tha.
Sugam Nilaye ko gaur se dekhe jaa raha tha.
"Kya dekh rahe ho aise?" Nilaye ne pyaar se puchha...
"Dekh raha hoon andhera halka pad gaya hai, ujala nikal aaya hai or sab kuch saaf - saaf najar aane laga hai.", Nilaye idhar udhar dekhta hai to sach me raat beet chuki thi or suraj devta ne apne aane se pehle apne saarthi anshu mali ko ujala karne bhej diya tha.
"Aapse baaton baaton me raat ka pata hi nahi chala", Nilaye uth k jaane laga.
"Aree kaha jaa rahe ho... Abhi tumhari akhiri baat to baaki hai", Sugam ne use roka.
"Maine aapko kya kahan tha ek raat me mai aapko 9 baat bataunga.. So maine bata di", Nilaye ne pyaar se kaha.
"Lekin abhi to aath baat hi huyi hai."Sugam ne socha
"Lekin ab raat bhi nahi rahi...", Nilaye jaane lagta hai.."
"To kya mujhe ek or raat ka intezar karna padega tumhari akhiri baat janne k liye ", Sugam pichhe se chilla k bolta hai.
"Maine kya kaha jara dhyaan dena uspe ", Nilaye bina pichhe mude apni baat kehta hua chala jata hai or savere ki dundh me aankho se kahi ojhal ho jata hai. Lekin Sugam samjh nahi pata k Nilaye ki akhiri baat kya thi.
Tabhi ek station plateform pe ek ladka subha ka akhbaar bechne Sugam k paas aata hai.
"Sahab akhbaar kharidoge? Wo puchhta hai.
Sugam mana kar deta hai or wo akhbaar wala aage badh jata hai tabhi Sugam ko kuch ehsaas hota hai or wo us akhbaar wale ko rokta hai. Wo jaldi se jata hai or us akhbaar wale se ek akhbaar lekar dhyaan se dekhta hai...
Usme Nilaye ki photo chhapi thi. Or niche likha tha...
"Kal raat Devpur k Railway Station k paas tej raftaar se aati huyi train ke aage kood kar 22 saal k ek ladke ne apni jaan de di. Ladke ka naam Nilaye bataya jaa raha hai or uske aisa karne ki wajah uska samlangik hona hai... Jiski wajah se use har jagah apmaan or apshabd shene pad rahe the oe annt me usne apni jaan dena jeene se jyada behtar samjha."
Ye khabar padh Sugam k pairo tale zameen khisak jaati hai... Wo bhauchakka sa reh jata hai...
"Agar Nilaye marr chuka hai to kal raat jo mere saath wo kon tha."
Sugam ko hairaan pareshan dekh Station Master uske paas aate hai..
"Kya hua beta tum theek to ha or tumhari tarin abhi tak nahi aayi? .", Station Master ne puchha
"Master sahab ye ladka... ", usne akhbaar dikhate huye kaha.
"Ohh ye... Haan kal raat isne yehi paas k track pe train k aage kood kar apni jaa de di. Lekin tum itna kyu pareshan ho rahe ho kal ek yaatri bhi keh raha tha k bahar bench pe baitha ladka apne aap se baat kiye jaa raha hai.. Tum theek to ho na", Station Master ki ye baat sun Sugam sab samjh jata hai. Or wo dheere se haan me sar hilata hai.
Station Master to chale jaate hai lekin Sugam wahi khada reh jata hai aankhon me aansu liye...Use Nilaye ki akhiri line yaad aa rahi thi ki
"Ab subha ho chuki or raat bhi nahi rahi or maine ek raat me 9 baat batane k liye kaha tha to meri baat puri ho chuki hai".
Sugam samjh jata hai k Nilaye ki akhiri baat atmahatya se sambandhit thi jo usne Sugam se milne se kuch samay pehle ki thi...
Sugam shaant sa khada tha.
"To ye thi ek raat ki tumhari akhiri baat Nilaye.. Tum khud jis dard se gujare ho us dard se mai na gujru isliye tumne mujhe zindagi ko samajhne ka dhang apni 9 baaton se sikha diya... Mai apni zindagi khatam kar ke ek or Nilaye na banu isliye mar kar bhi tumne apni 9 baaton ka paath ek raat me padha diya or suraj ki pehli kiran k saath udan chhu ho gaye... Kyu gay ko Suicide ka rasta chunna padta hai jab saare raste band ho jaate hai, kyu use koi nahi samjhta. Tumne to apni jaan de di lekin marne k baad bhi ek jaan bachayi hai wo hai meri...mere dukho se mera parichay karaya or use sukh me badalne ka hausala tumhari aatma ne diya hai... Jo tum kabhi apne liye na kar sake wo tumne mere liye kar diya.
Kal ki raat tumari akhiri raat thi or usi raat me jo 9 baatein tumne kahi usse mere naye jeevan ki shuruaat hogi or us jeevan me mai un baaton ko kabhi nahi bhoolunga.....kabhi nahi.
Sugam ki aankho se ek aansu ka katra Devpur ki zameen par girta hai. Uski train bhi apne aane ka ailan horn baja ke kar deti hai.. Or Sugam Nilaye ki 9 baaton ko jehen me rakhe huye train pe apna kadam rakh deta hai jo use naye aatmvishvas ki majil ki taraf le jaati hai.
"न भय खुद से दूर जाने का,
कि स्वयं को गींठा लगाया हूँ मैं;
न डर किसी के प्रवेश का मुझमें,
अंतर्मुखी सुकून में गूँथा गया हूँ मैं।"
.............The End............
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